Rebecca

It's been awhile since I spoke like a human

Haven't seen you in over a decade and haven't talked since I moved

And I the whole town _?_ telling me you've been bad

Grieving over the fact that you're losing your baby's dad

But it's not just that, you're farther into the crack

Heard you're walking a track and marching into the trash

Fuck praying, 'cause I've been silent for years

I'm sick of trying to be a man about it; Hiding my tears

And fuck the judgment, I've got a messed up past

But when asked or confronted, I shut down fast

And the truth is, girl I cry when I think of you

And write a million songs that imma never get to sing with you

Talk about the places imma never get to bring you to

Show you what it's like to build a life and learn a thing or two

What hurts me is that I love you, 'cause you're my older sister

The only girl that I can rock with

Mom's so down when I ask and dad's so sad

That I don't know if he's ever gonna get past it

And really, I'm finding it hard for me to manage

Any close relationships without the fear of vanishing

All of this has been hard, I ain't denying it

I'm writing down this song as a product of my violence

But listen, they say that family is everything

It's more than just a house, two dogs and a wedding ring

It's blossoming life and standing up to anything

Trying to take the people that you love to what it's meant to be

Yeah, so then where'd you go?

Prisoner in your body quarantined from your soul

And I know those drugs got you out in the cold

Got you spitting in the mouth of those showing you hope

So if you'd ever come through to your senses

I'll be write here, waiting for a _?_