ditch

Fuck my life

Fuck my health

You don't care so I'll go fuck myself

Fuck this job

Fuck this car

Every song that I write just co-exists with a scar

And I've got paragraphs about the shit that I will never say

'Cause it'll kill you just to hear me whine and bitch all fuckin' day

Maybe the grass is green in other states where I choose to reside

Maybe a glimpse of light will formulate and catch my fuckin' eye

And maybe you'll hear this when you check my page and ask if I'm alright

'Cause I've been afraid of all the darkest places lying in my mind

I will convince myself I'm dying but then act like I'm just fine

My minds a scary fuckin' place and I can't fix it while I drive

But my car is Lucy in the sky with diamonds going 65

And you're just a pothole

Maybe Yoko Ono screaming by my side

Is this the end of things, I'm strumming strings just trying to decide

'Cause I am afraid of me, so save me please, I beg you just to try

I'm losing my purpose, life's a circus, they said: Please enjoy the ride

My seatbelt is broken, eyes wide open as my body starts to slide

If I escape the wreck, I'll disconnect from everyone online

I'll pack my belongings, I've been longing for this moment my whole life

I'll disappear for months, no mentions of my status or a clue

I'm fine, don't you worry, there's no hurry to return to what I knew

It's hard to calculate these conversations if I'm being truthful

I wanna congregate all that relate to everything I spew

In midst of my disconnect, I'll stay in check, and keep in touch with few

As long as I'm open, I'm just hoping that it's something I'll get through

'Cause I'm a fucking wreck

Oh, what the heck?

Why do I even try?

I lie in the grass

High off my ass

And watch the clouds just pass on by

If life has a purpose

I am nervous

To unravel what is mine

I'll trip and I'll travel

Down the rabbit hole

And ditch my bags inside