Ikusen no Terrorism e

The shreds of memories stand strong and never fall

The edges frayed, seeming fragile after all

And I’m ashamed by my blunt personality

And I’m ashamed by how transparent I can really be

And all the memories crushed, diced, and thrown about

My brain convulses with every urge to let it out

With mud obstructing my chance at seeing clearly

My ineptitude leaves me distorting

There’s not soul who can truly understand me

There’s not a voice in the world that reaches out to me

When they try, there’s only one thing that I can hear

The screams of monkeys overflowing my ears

No matter how many times I look at the past

If I could, I would make it all disappear at last

I know how it seems that I could care less

Inside I’m a literal mess

Call me foolish when the breakdown’s only begun

Maybe things will end by jumping off the hands of temptation

And I’ll be in free-fall forever

And I’ll be unloving forever

My mouth is full of the unforgiving memories

And every day, they’re distorted even more, it seems

I hope you’ll never observe this horrid side of me

‘Cus I can’t stomach these feelings of morbidity

Within a hazy fog, I’ve been searching

For something beautiful, something worth anything

I’m nothing special, I’m lower than stupidity

A crowd of monkeys only laughing at me

I could never see a future for a person like me

Every little damn thing coming out of my mouth sounds like a madman

Nothing can make me laugh anymore

Forgiveness is all I ask for

Every night devoid of love, I wanna scream and cry

Don’t even try to tell me otherwise, it’s nothing but sympathetic lies

But really, I’m fine - I’m just a little strange

So don’t call me lonely anymore

I’m laughing out loud

My body paralyzed

The tears are filling up

I’m breaking down knowing our views were all for naught

And every corner of our consciousness is filled to the brim with twisted thoughts

Because of the years my heart spent filled with hate

It’s now in a stagnant state

Thinking all about how I could make the time go by

My mouth is spilling out the pieces from these fragmented words of mine

And even these lyrics are coated in lies

It’s pretty deceitful, so may I laugh?