Melancholy Doll

You heard a shouting voice

A grating sound, an empty cry

You saw a spark in it

A promise for your sacrifice

Taking me far from there

The loneliness, the solitude

You taught me how to sing

And how to breathe and what to do

But I became dependent on you

You, a loner, needed someone else

Our fates had knotted into one

I'm okay with it

This is how it is

I don't have a place still left to run

Per-

Fect me till I'm polished, till there's nothing left at all

Let me become your ideal, from my rise until my fall

I don't care for anybody, anybody else

So it's fine for you to play with me

Just let me be your doll

You saw a spark in me

The dark lit by

A natural light

There was a fire

In the words you'd said

The songs you'd write

Our knotted fate was great

We weren't going anywhere

A night or two became

Another side to life we shared

But

I became enchanted by you

You, a loner, needed your own space

I must've pushed you far enough

Just an argument

I was arrogant

Thinking you would stay there out of love

And then out of nowhere, no one saw you

You just disappeared

I grew worried, I grew desperate, I was stifled by my fear

Tell me something, anything, just show me you're alive

And then there I saw it

Smoke and fire

Reaching to the sky

Now, setting to fire your own home

All that I had of you was smoke

In the end

Every song you ever wrote, reduced to only ash

Tell me, what use is this voice if it'll never bring you back?

Ink and paper's fragile, and impermanent at that

But the thing that makes me worry is that

You were all I had

I'm not good for anything, I have no other use

It was fine for you to toy with me

And let me be your muse

Now you're gone, so there's no point in singing after all

I'll go back to shouting, back to screaming, your rejected doll