Strangest Dreams

If you ever lost the person who was closest to you

I don't know what else to say other then me too

If you ever had feelings inside yourself

So bad... You had died yourself

I try to keep the depression to a minimum

But I done I carried caskets that had my best friends in em

I believe hearts can be so broken there is no mending em

If you recover, you're a true champion

Just know it can be done it's just a test of your faith and God

He gonna be with you every step of the way

I'm a sinner and I know I'm not living right

And if I were to die, out here chasin this rent tonight

Denied at the gates, casted into hell

Some how, that's secondary to cash and living well

Fuck a condo, a mansion, a bentley, and a benz

When I die, I wanna be with my paw paw again

I had the strangest dreams

Ever since you been gone

They always end holding you

But I wake up here all alone

I had the hardest time

Picking up and moving on

I fall asleep hoping, maybe

I'll wake and you'll be home

Your momma named you makayla kay

I call you whop-gotti

I love ya like I never loved nobody

From baby food to hot wings

We done came along way

Daddy work all night and sleep all day or

Daddy work all day and sleep all night

But I couldn't sleep at all if I didn't know you was alright

Maybe one day when you're an older kid

I'll sit down and explain this soldier shit

About loyalty and friendship, honor, and taking vows

And other things you can't understand right now

You just see I'm not around the way I should be

And still she calls me every day to say that she loves me

One day you'll be grown with children of your own

And I hope every moment I'm not gone.

Boo boo, in case I'm not there when you turn thirteen

We all come to red lights, we won't see turn green.

I had the strangest dreams

Ever since you been gone

They always end holding you

But I wake up here all alone

I had the hardest time

Picking up and moving on

I fall asleep hoping, maybe

I'll wake and you'll be home

I done lost a whole lot of people to this thing here

In 98 we lost four in the same year

Sill beer, perpetuates a moment of reflection

And I try to freeze frame that picture of perfection

Me and you chillin, blowin, and getting gone

Back to present day and poof ya gone

All these years and it don't even seem that long

You ain't goin no where (hell no) he's to strong

He just sleeping, standing by the machine beeping

And ya momma said baby he is leaving now

And that machine is the only reason he's breathing now

I said God damn it and ran my fist into the wall

I was fucking with that brawd I oughta been with ya'll

And all this could of been prevented

It's amazing what can change in a few minutes

But since you been gone so much went by

Nothing changed I still like to ride and get high

And ponder questions, like why I am I still alive

Forty east bound blowing doing ninety five

Why are we even here, the answer to this riddle

Is a question that we been trying to answer

Since we was little, what's my purpose in life

Something big for me to do

Must be because if not then I'd be there kicking it with you.

I had the strangest dreams

Ever since you been gone

They always end holding you

But I wake up here all alone

I had the hardest time

Picking up and moving on

I fall asleep hoping, maybe

I'll wake and you'll be home