Distant

I crave affection, co-dependence and vulnerability

All of which I try to keep myself from experiencing

But I can’t help when there’s a crack in the façade I bring

I let my guard down for a second and you leave

It took some time for me to realise the things I feel

Six months of us pretending, we never wanted this to be real

If I’m honest with myself I thought we would never really fit

But I cared more than I care to admit

So lock me out of your life

And throw away the key

We were never meant to be

Leave me to waste, hang me out to dry

Another person in my life on which I can’t rely

Hide me away, create an alibi

For all the time that you felt distant and weary-eyed

Were we ever that special if you never trusted me?

Your mind polluted by self-doubt and insecurity

But I guess I'm still to blame, I'm the cause of your distress

I’m the only constant in every single mess

It’s so much harder to point the blame

When everything turns out the same

I guess I’m always the one to blame

When it all turns out the same