If Only I Were a Butterfly

Sometimes I don't feel quite myself here

Sometimes I don't feel like it's my home

Would like to be in a place where I'm free

A place I call my own

Sometimes I feel like I'm trapped in my spider's web

And each thread is in itself a problem

So I try to break free, untangled then

But I'm back to where I started from

Oh, if only I were a butterfly

I could fly so high

Right past the sky

And let go my fears

Let go my despairs

I would give them to the air

Without a care

I walk alone in the dark

And I wonder through the night

I lie to look up high to see the starry sky

It gives me strength to know

There's peace somewhere up there

So quite, so undisturbed, I'm mystified

In my bed I lie awake

And I'm dreaming of that land

So far away from me

It makes me want to cry

Myself to sleep, with plans that

Pray for the day for I die

Oh, if only I were a butterfly

I could fly so high

Right past the sky

And let go my fears

Let go my despairs

I would give them to the air

Without a care