May Queen

I went to meet her for a friend, a beloved friend

Who knew he couldn't be there and knew someone should be

We love each other, he and I--a brother's love, he'd say

So who else would he send to bring his bride that day?

They said she's lovely as the spring. Imagine my surprise

To find that they were right and hadn't said the half

The careless sunlight in her eyes, the petals in her hair

I saw how he could love her, the May Queen standing there

And in that moment I understood how he could love her

And what they shared could never be for me

I understood, but yet I've never really conquered

That part inside that wishes it had been me

And I was staring at the sun for hours the morning after

Trying to burn it from my eyes

He's never been what I can't help but see when he is with her

And so of course I wished them joy--else what friend would I be?

And in that moment I understood how he could love her

And what they shared would never be for me

I understood, but yet I've never really conquered

That part inside that wishes it had been me.