Shaded Land

All I've longed for faded away

Count me out now, I cannot stay

I'm so astray

Can't walk on these lands of gray

If I can't just fire at will

Shoot myself, my gun standing still

My choice is to scream it out loud

Bullet-words - shoot out - around

My world's coming down

Apart

My hope's coming down

Apart

My soul's crumbling down

Apart

My mind's breaking down

My guts / My veins

Myself / I'm done

No way out of my mind's shaded land

I cannot escape or leave behind these darkened flames

Should I give in and fade to black?

Or just to breathe in, try to pull through?

My walls closing in

Scream out

Myself caving in

Breathe out

This knife cutting in

Rip out

This death fencing in

My head / My life

My hands / My death

Hear me out now

No one can help me now

My guts - spilling out

My veins - carving out

Myself - freaking out

I'm done - count me out

My head - clearing out now

My life - wrecked out now

My hands - reaching out now

My death - fight it out now

Cast this life away from me

So I can go on free from this shaded land