Hole in My Head

you stalked all those years

waiting to pounce

like mary, you'd comfort

then judas, renounce

seeking some light of guidance

i saw your dagger glint

and boy did you kick

when i hit the floor

your fake sympathy

kicked my ears even more

growing rich from my toil

like i worked in your shop

the good old days you used

to bind me like rope

dragged me through traitor's gate

talking of hope

my cards you revealed

when i was winning the game

you shot me with arrows

from nostalgias bow

the rules to this sick game

only you seemed to know

from 'high' all the time then

to stooping this low

you played at being my friend now confess

how you gagged with envy, swallowing my success

you laughed loud, i was finished

when i laid down to rest

my weakness, your banquet

how your table's been blessed

i need all your hurt

like a hole in my head

i gave you one thousand

percent of my trust

and my most private feelings

for you, i would defrost

i crowned you with light

maybe too hastily

there was never a problem

who took and who gave

but you killed off our friendship

so let it rot in its grave

the bed is so stoney

when innocence dies

you held your nose and

through ambition you'd wade

how can you dig for gold

when your spade's not a spade?

you suffered in silence

in full combat stance

'et tu brute' you stabbed

me when you saw your chance

i need all of your hurt

like a hole in my head