Proud

I still got your pictures on my phone

Wonder why you thought you had to go

Left me all alone and on my own

Felt it coming this whole time I should've known

But why, why'd you have to leave me all alone

You know, how you make me feel when you ain't home

My god, it's killing me inside I hope you know

Been dead in my heart for a while though it hurts won't let it show

No time for farewells and no chances for goodbyes

You disappeared forever and you left me high and dry

How you gonna leave and leave me out here left to die

You fed me to the wolves when I needed you by my side

I don't want to say nothing that's bad about you

I still love you girl I'm still mad about you

There was once a time when I would never doubt you

But people change and now I have to live without you

You could have just said goodbye, you ghosted me moved on with life, anxiety and all this strife, and I wonder all the time if you just found a new guy

I just wanna make you proud

Like I used to when you vowed

To never leave my side when I was down

You let me sink and now I'm boutta drown

I can still see your face I can still hear your voice

And I don't even wanna but I don't have any choice

I try to block it out and listen to the city noise

You kill me from inside and now I'm completely destroyed

But the worst part is I don't know

Where you are or how you are or where'd you go

You didn't say nothing you just let me go

Left me with my thoughts left me all alone

I don't wanna see your face anymore

I don't wanna hear your voice anymore

I don't wanna think about you anymore

I don't hate you I just can't bear it no more

Your hair, your smile, your fingertips

Your face, your voice, your mouth, your lips

Your warmth, your laugh, your legs, your thighs

Your love, your hate, your care, your eyes