Happiness

I really hope that you find happiness

And the book you write's magnificent

And I won't help but stare at every word

It would burn holes in many mattresses

After I place it down, read unfold

That lovely little book titled 'I told you so'

Yeah you're thorough-ly mad

At the world

Yeah and it sucks, but this place will never change

It'll probably get way worse

At best stay the same

So you'll be fucking world renowned

While I'm getting drunk at my house

Thinking about the dumb words I said when

I was a bit too high

Those two pills I took felt very nice

But made me break your lovely little heart

And I said: Ashley, that's so fucking dumb

To think that life just hands you some book

That you barely have to write

It's gonna take like fucking 4 or 5 bad books

Nobody would ever like

For you to live that wonderful life

And she stopped

And she cried

That night

And she's right, she's gonna write that book

That's gonna make me look

Like a fucking fool

And I know that she'll find happiness

And her book will be magnificent

And I won't help but stare at every word

It would burn holes in all these mattresses

After I place it down, read unfold

That lovely little book titled 'I told you so'

Yeah you're thorough-ly mad at me

But so what? I'm never gonna change

I'll probably get way worse

At best stay the same

So I will sit

And I will drink my self

To either to sleep or my untimely death

Either way I hope that you don't cry, you know

That's just a part of life

Derek's father and my father know

Cirrhosis is a tough way to go

So when we drink a lot after our show

Pretending that we're not even scared at all

Genetics are what make me go to bed

Because there's something that's inside my head

That will click and make me drink until I'm dead

And Derek's dad and my dad are done

So I will sit and

I will think about this life

And if I even like it

But I know that I'm gonna find

A little bit of happiness

I think it's in my house or somewhere else

But I am turning over every stone

And I will search the fucking depths of this

Stupid place my kids will have to live

In order just to smile a little bit

But you know

I'm though-ly in love with you

And yeah I'm really scared that I may never change

But I'm so fucking done being so afraid

I really hope that you find happiness