Nightmare

When I close my eyes and I try to sleep

The weight of the world falls down on me

It's all a part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

You're sick, inside of bed, infected with the feelings

Staring up like my dreams were projected on the ceiling

I can see it, I want the money and the fame too

They told me when you get it, never let it change you

And finally I've morphed into everything I tried to be

The fucking irony is everybody's got their eye on me

Society quickly became my rivalry

Driving me off the deep end, then doubt starts to creep in

Fair-weather, they're never there, do I need friends? We eating

But will they stick around when the feast ends?

You say you love me when it's glitter and gold

But when it's bitter and cold, would you deliver my soul?

Oh, just cut me out the picture and roll

Love is pain and it's taking its toll, feel like I've wasted my whole life

Always working, searching for some shit

Trying to live a life that's perfect, but perfect don't exist

When I close my eyes and I try to sleep

The weight of the world falls down on me

It's all just a part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Spent my whole life chasing after dreams

But every dream turns out to be

Just a part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Help me, no, I can't help myself

Help me to believe that I'm somebody else

Not some fucking addict who can't dream 'cause his habits

Are chopped up on a table till he screams, let me have it!

Fuck it, what's a life anyway, huh?

You hear about that kid who died again today, huh?

I'd pull my fucking guts out just to make 'em understand

That I've become a ghost, I am a ghost, I'm not a man

Why can't I fucking say it? They'd say that I'm insane

But in a song they'd play it 'cause they understand the pain

What the fuck is going on? Who am I?

Life is just so fucking long, I wanna...

Forgive me, don't forget me, believe you can protect me

It's just a song, I'm venting with the verse that's never ending

And I have finally lost, the world has finally won

Dear God, did you forget your son?

When I close my eyes and I try to sleep

The weight of the world falls down on me

It's all a part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Spent my whole life chasing after dreams

But every dream turns out to be

Just a part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Part of my nightmare, part of my nightmare

Can't find a reason why, don't know why I even try

I pray when I sleep at night so at least I'll die a decent guy

When I look in the mirror and say hi, I can't look me in the eye

We're both ashamed of the guy on the other side

Can't find my peace and quiet, some things are better left in silence

It's me who needs some guidance, or maybe what I need is violence

When I'm having a meltdown, can't ask for help now

Got so much self-doubt that I weird myself out, can you help out?

So many selfish phobias like self-inflicted loneliness

Sometimes I get so low in this empty search for holiness

Can't seem to find a reason why, I don't know why I even try

These demons they won't let me sleep at night

They're killing my dreams, they need me to die

But fuck it

I got nothing left to say

We're all gonna die anyway

Shit could happen to me any day

I just spit thirty-two and didn't say a damn thing