Monochrome

I'm not scared to die anymore

A simple statement that I shouldn't have to say at this age

But it's a true statement as death reduces time in a secluded state

Although I don't wish to invest my ideas in hopelessness

I feel as if they've been wasted

As if they're turning the handle on a locked door that needs a key

But that key does not exist

Why do I feel so hopeless?

I shouldn't feel this way at this young age

I have a whole life to rot in my grave

I shouldn't feel this way at this young age

I've spent my whole life turning in my grave

Staying bitter about all of my failures, I won't fail this time

I always said I'd never let myself get like this

It's breaking me to the core

I've always felt as if I've been

Put second best to the ones who I despise

I can't keep this hole in my chest

I always feel the guilt for never being there

For myself when I needed me the most

I've lost all love, my life is monochrome

I've lost all love, my life is monochrome

And when I find myself I will find my home

I've found sadness in this state

And what if a life of no love awaits?

I'm not afraid to say that I can't go on

I can't go on feeling this way

I hate my life and all around me is bleak

Am I less of a man if I admit I'm weak?

Because I feel sick, I'm tired and bored

Of my routine and all my fucking flaws

I always said I'd never let myself get like this

It's breaking me to the core

I've always felt as if I've been

Put second best to the ones who I despise

I can't keep this hole in my chest

I always feel the guilt for never being there

For myself when I needed me the most

I've lost all love, and my life is monochrome

I've lost all love, my life is monochrome

I've lost all love, my life is monochrome

I've lost all love, I've lost all love, I've lost all love

My life is monochrome

When I find myself, I will find my home

When I find myself, I will find my home