The Suffering (trilogy)

1. Scarred

Darkness calls down to me

Sweat pours from my body like rain

Growing wiser with each touch

A pawn in lucifers game, am I?

It attacks me in the black abyss

The entity formless yet full of rage

The mark of the beast my body

Scarring me for eternal life

[Chorus]

I brought this all upon myself

Sold my soul to change my life

It's up to me and no one else

The beast in me can't control my life

I brought this all upon myself

Sold my soul to change my life

It's up to me and no one else

The beast in me can't control me

[Bridge]

And so it's begun, this is the end of me

The seed was sewn now it's growing inside

My fate in control, not mine

He lied

[Chorus]

I brought this all upon myself

Sold my soul to change my life

It's up to me and no one else

The beast in me can't control my life

I brought this all upon myself

Sold my soul to change my life

It's up to me and no one else

The beast in me won't control me

2. Slave To The Dark

A twisted state of mind, torn between two worlds

One of which the new me hates and the one that's coming true

The power is unleashed, they perish at my gaze

But am I really in control or am I just a slave

I called upon this god to deliver unto me

To grant what I desire he brought me to my knees

He turned his back on me and filled me with his lies

Ask and I received damnation was the price

I signed my name in blood, didn't read the fine prints

Now I'm just a puppet god for the devils own descent

Bound and shackled here forever damned a slave

Fallen bloody tears can't wash the pain away

[Chorus]

All at once it's clear to me

Damnation and destiny

A slave to darkness shall I be

Damnation and destiny

And so I must repent or will I be destroyed

Will the one that lives in me release me from this lie

And will the wrath of god have mercy on my soul

Or humilate me, desecrate me, like his only son

[Repeat Chorus]

3. A Question Of Heaven

The time is close now, the end is near

My walk through the valley, trails of fear

I feel empty, my penance overdue,

I guess it's too late now to be with you

I'm extremely frightened of what will surely be

I sold myself, the death of me

I know you can't forgive me I know I'm on my own,

I've betrayed you I walk alone

What exactly is the meaning of this

Just pawns in your twisted game

Severe pain for the lie I'm livin'

For a love I never could betray

[Bridge]

Question me not say the lord unto thee

You have chosen your own fate and your own destiny

Denied of this life is what you are to be

You have chosen your own fate and your own destiny

Lord I pound my fists at you

Won't you just let me die

Would I not suffer enough

No inner peace no after life

[Repeat Bridge]

I did what I thought was right

All for the love of my life

I know it's sad but true

Something is very wrong

Condemned to suffer so long

For a love so true

The question that lies within

Is so hard to understand

It still tears at me

And in my dying breath

My heart holds no regrets

I wouldn't change a thing

My spirit begins to rise to the heavenly skies

Just to be shunned away by you

Now all I want is to die, no streets of gold in the sky

And I wash my hands of you

[Bridge]

Rising to the heaven's light

Just to plead for death

Just to be denied

Rising to the heaven's light

Just to plead for death

Just to be denied

Ooohhh, I know you can't forgive me

I know I'm on my own

I know that I've betrayed you

You know I walk alone

You know I walk alone

I walk, I walk the trail of fear

I pound my fists at you

I'm shunned away by you

I wash my hands of you

Why won't you let me die

Why won't you let me die

Why won't you let me die