Panic Attacks

I'm sorry I'm here again

I'm sorry, I'm starting to wear again

Sorry, you're tired of hearing it

I'm tired of carrying all the comparison

Sorry I'm feeling it

I'm sorry I suck at concealing it

If I were real with you, I'd tell it all

If you were real with me, you'd tell me

You don't think I'm real at all

So who do you think you are?

Without me, you're nothing

Don't mean to cause no alarm

But I'm all you got

You treat me like you forgot how we got started

Now I'm discarded

Not sure what I did, but I don't belong here

If you don't need me, I'll hang back

But you're gonna feel me when the panic attacks

Yeah, remеmber that?

You and me, see, we go way back

Had your bеst interest, had your back

But you weren't interested in that

And I do my best to shut up

'Cause that's all you ever try to tell me when I come up

So I stay in the basement and try to hold the breakdowns back

But the basic math says this won't last

How much longer do you think you have

One of these days you'll totally crash

You'll look at me like: What just happened?

That's what I've been trying to keep from happening

So I keep you happy

I keep you happy

Till someday, suddenly, sadly

You're snapping

Oh, and the tiniest crack

Spreads like fire, shatters the glass

You try holding it back

But beggars can't choose when the panic attacks

I'm sorry I'm sensitive

But not really sorry

'Cause you're just pretending it ain't what it is

Ain't what we are

Like, you think you really got us this far

And that's all in spite of me

Really now?

And you wish I wasn't here

Really now?

Gave you the warnings, gave the signs

You just ignore me, pay me no mind

You left me no options

I gotta stop this

Can't have you thinking that you really got this

Not sabotaging

Just trying to caution you

Before you put us straight in the coffin

I'll make you nauseous

Feel like you lost it

Head to the basement

Make you my hostage

For so many years I couldn't stop it

Now I'll make you feel like I feel

I promise

Oh, and the tiniest crack

Spreads like fire, shatters the glass

You try holding it back

But beggars can't choose when the panic attacks

Oh, and just the tiniest crack

Can break you into pieces just like that

There's no holding it back

'Cause beggars can't choose when the panic attacks

(I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry)

I'm sorry I doubted you

Sorry I made you shut up

I couldn't face the truth

It scared me too much

So I kept you locked up

'Cause I didn't know

Know that I needed you

Till you let me know

I'm sorry I doubted you

I'm sorry I made you shut up

I couldn't face the truth

'Cause it scared me too much

So I kept you locked up

'Cause I didn't know

Know that I needed you

But I do now

Oh, and the tiniest crack

Spreads like fire, shatters the glass

You try holding it back

But beggars can't choose when the panic attacks

Oh, and just the tiniest crack

Can break you into pieces just like that

There's no holding it back

'Cause beggars can't choose when the panic attacks

(I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry)