Always Starting Over

In my life

I never though I'd get a second chance

I thought I was done

Then I met you

No, I never dreamed I could learn how to love again

I placed my bet

And you came through

I somehow still lost

I somehow always do

This time feels new

Thank you for finding me

And thank you for the care

And fuck you for making me

Think that this life might be fair

You promised to love me

A promise you've kept

And I wont be sorry that

You said to leap and I leapt

I won't regret

What I did then

Though it hurts more than I

Could imagine back when

All the same even so

I would love you all over again

Am I always starting over

In a brand new story

Am I always back at one

After all I've done

'Cause I've burned all of my bridges

And learned every last lesson too

So how can I start new?

I'll love our children

Both fiercely and well

When they ask about you

Oh, Lordy, the stories I'll tell

No, I cant just crumble

And I never will

I've already wasted

Too much of my life holding still

Say that its fate

Say its foretold

I'm through with fighting

And I'm much too old

What the gods have to give

I'll take and I'll live anymore

If we're always starting over

Every brand new morning

Then we're always starting out

With the end in doubt

'Cause we'll cross every last river

And climb every last hill to climb

We'll still start new each time

All that has happened is happening now

All that might happen is here some how

All of the choices that made me me

All of the accidents yet to be

All that's ahead

And all that's behind

It's all in the moment

I've made up my mind

And know in my heart

And start

And I'll start

'Cause we're always starting over

Every life we're living

Yes, we're always just awake

Every step we take

And, my love, our life is over

But love, I'll make you one last vow

To start over

And over

And over

Somehow

My new life starts right now