By The Time You Read This

I'm leaving right now, not for another moment

Can I stand to bear the weight of your eyes upon me

There's a weight that pressing on my shoulders

Each step away takes so much effort

But when you turn around next I still won't be there

I've managed to kid myself about who I am

For such a long time

And about how you may have felt

It's still hard to put into words

Just how much you mean to me

Those wonderful nights just seem so far away now

I can look into the sky

And almost see them, out there between the stars

Of course I know you don't even see that much at all

So when you look back I'll be gone

And you won't have missed a thing

Maybe this is better

Because I'd rather you not see this

How I'd scream at these walls

Until I can't speak your name again

I've managed to kid myself about who I am

For such a long time

And about how you may have felt

It's still hard to put into words

Just how much you mean to me

I'll be gone when you turn around

You'll only see the same empty space

The space that we both shared

This those memories that you've forgotten

And I'll be running; I'll keep on running

Because I'm leaving for good

I won't be looking back, no I won't

Running forward into the night

I'll let it swallow me whole

Maybe you'll hear me in the wind

But then it will be too late

To say goodbye

Goodbye