I Could've Been

You never wanted to see me leave this. I never wanted to stick around

And there's a rainstorm in my head that I just can't outrun right now

I'm faking smiles and stomach aches so I can get away

Sometimes I think that I'm the only one who feels this way

The only things holding me back are my own thoughts in my head

And I can't understand why I can't just move on and get passed them

It's probably my own fault, and who's to say I can't fix it?

But maybe sometimes life just gets in the way

I thought that with a change of pace

That I could get the hang of this

You're just another something

That I can't seem to erase

I thought that with a change of pace

That things would start to feel okay again

I guess I'm never gonna learn

I guess I'm never gonna learn

I tried to make it to the ending of a book I never read

I'm relapsing to my old self trying to skip all these steps

I'm faking smiles and stomach aches when I start to feel trapped (it's hard to breathe)

I never thought that I would lie to the ones who stay close to me

I thought that with a change of pace

That I could get the hang of this

You're just another something

That I can't seem to erase

I thought that with a change of pace

That things would start to feel okay again

I guess I'm never gonna learn

I guess I'm never gonna learn

Could you tell I wasn't honest?

I could've been, I could've been

I couldn't be all that you wanted

Could you tell I wasn't honest?

I could've been, I could've been

I couldn't be all that you wanted