With Quiet Disregard

For years and years in this world I am living

With infinite pain I swallow deep down inside

No one have known how much wounds I covered

No one have known how much I was tired

How can it be I am drowning in oceans

Of deep agony that take me to edges

With the weight of this fate on my shoulders

Asking myself to fall in this haze

I've tried to search my hopes and my answers

Across this malignant reigns of sorrow and grief

I have seen so much gloom, desperation

And the lights of the truth disappeared

Indeed I felt my spirit withering slowly

Cold autumn waves embraced entirely my being

My fragile wishes have called me to follow

My inner wisdoms and my secret dreams

I've tried to fight against my loneliness

I was always afraid to delusing someone

I've slighted my real ideals and wishes

And I've lied to myself about my life

But I've found just cold statues on my paths

And my naivety became my eternal flaw

And soon I forget about my tenderness

And thunders of madness encircled my soul

Black fogs covered the sun of my existence

And the fallen leaves have frozen my heart

Asleep in the deepest agonal slumber

I am chained in the mirrors of loss

With every new fall I gain to this knowledges

With every new pain my being will fade

My sins and my failures will lead me to abyss

My journey will come to it's unnatural end

This words are so cold

This beings are so wrong

This pains are so old

This feelings are so strong

I drank alone my poison

I've sit in depths of ashes

I've withered in my darkness

I burnt in my fancy's flames

I fell in absence of myself

I travelled beyond sweet deceits

My world, lost and forgotten

Adrift (adrift) in ocean of sins

I'm the cursed, the vagrant

I'm silent in fire of doom

Oppressed by my inner damnation

Betrayed by my wounded lusts

My world is dying in indifference

In loveless oceans of lies

There's no time for the changes

And I am (I am) so tired (so tired) to try