Inscrutable Confusion

In my deepest time of anger

A black vision filled

Ruled every part of me

I did feel an evil danger

Threatening my world my life

And the being i used to be

Im dying million times a day

I never thought it could be

The last time i lay

Im agonizing million times a night

I tried to catch my soul

And hold it on so tight

I ve dreamed something

Never happened in my life

I ve felt the endless end

I ve felt death so rife

A sharp confusion of feelings

Glistened at my heart

I liked the way i died

But i hated it when i tried

I loved to live the breath

And i hated to face death

I couldn't choose freely

The way i was to go

I couldnt know exactly

What i was to know

Nothing had killed me except

This huge confusion

Nothing had ended me except

This inscrutable illusion