Predetermined

When I heard about your demise

There wasn’t a part of me that felt surprised

An unavoidable end for my first best friend

You drifted away at a most impressionable age

Fell in with a darker world, always chasing a different girl

Letting your loneliness lead you somewhere it could multiply and truly thrive

Despite my lack of shock I still felt my stomach drop

I thought about your sister and what the fuck this will do to her

What about your parents? No one should outlive one of their kids

I tried my best to keep it together in front of your family and friends

All with matching expressions in a room missing a coffin

On the way home it hit me like a ton of bricks

Listening to lights went out thinking about the life you missed

My heart breaks

My heart breaks

Only in photographs can I see your face