Endless Stairs

My face, my face is numb

Just like a zombie, like a zombie

I failed, I failed again

I should have known it!

I don't know what is next, I don't know what I want

Waiting to be written, waiting to be told

I can't stand the infinite pairs of eyes glowing in the dark

I can't stand the million granules of disappointment in my life

Feeling like a rat - endlessly running in the wheel

Trying to catch the time - and holding it, trying to feel

Trying to taste the light - still being friends with the darkness

Lost and confused - I'm looking for a sign in my bag of failures

I'm trying!

I'm trying to wake up the sky

With my bitter taste of coffee

I'm trying!

I'm trying to wake up the sky

With my bitter taste of coffee

I'm trying!

Tired of staying speechless in the dark, dark corner

Tired of tasting nothing but bitter and sour

Tired of screaming under my breath, under my breath

Tired of this endless pain in my chest

How can I find my way out from these endless stairs

I need to find my way out from this heavy dress

I just want to be a flower, swimming in the sunlight, begging for water

I just want to be a tree, stretching up to the sky, carelessly dancing

Drowning deeper and deeper in my own tears

Trying to open the door of hope with no keys

My face, my face is numb

Just like a zombie, like a zombie

I failed, I failed again

I should have known it!

Tired of staying speechless in the dark, dark corner

Tired of tasting nothing but bitter and sour

Tired of screaming under my breath, under my breath

Tired of this endless pain in my chest

How can I find my way out from these endless stairs

I need to find my way out from this heavy dress

I just want to be a flower, swimming in the sunlight, begging for water

I just want to be a tree, stretching up to the sky, carelessly dancing