Nightmare

All I'm seeing is red

I'm caught inside of my head

I need to learn how to let go, and just take a breath

This demon inside me

Is vicious and frightening

No remorse for the ones I love

Will he feed again? Will I let him in?

Paralysed

I'm living with a nightmare

Tearing apart my loved ones

I know it's not fair

Tighten the rope, I'm giving up before it's too late

I start to choke, I'm blacking out but I awaken

Is it all part of a nightmare?

I'm wide awake, but not in control

Seems too overwhelming

To shake free from his hold

I feel weak at the knees

But I'm tired of losing sleep

The only way I'll break free

Fight the nightmare fighting me

I tried to kill myself December 17th

(What's come of me?)

The person that I once was almost got the better of me

I'm paralysed

I'm living with a nightmare

Tearing apart my loved ones

I know it's not fair

Tighten the rope, I'm giving up before it's too late

I start to choke, I'm blacking out but I awaken

I hope you know, you brought out the worst in me

I push you all away

To keep my mind at ease

The nightmare comes and takes my strength

I feel I'm caving in

I'm lost within my thoughts

Deaths come to collect my soul

The reaper looks and turns away

It’s now a story to be told

Paralysed

I'm living with a nightmare

Tearing apart my loved ones

I know it's not fair

Tighten the rope, I'm giving up before it's too late

I start to choke, I'm blacking out but I awaken

I can't go living with the way I feel

When you have put me through so much hell

The thought of heaven is so unreal

When I've been living through so much hell