Picking Up The Pieces

I, I just want to feel whole

But the sad truth is

I don't even know what whole is anymore

Now I feel like I have nothing left

But I know that I'm worth so much more than this (so much more than this)

I've spent a lifetime listening to people questioning

The choices I make, the path I take

Suffocating my will to live

But I won't break

I don't want to lose control

I've struggled my entire life

To let it all just go

And I'm not perfect

But I am not worthless

I'm just trying to piece myself, back together again

Back together again

Find the pieces

Connect the loss

Erase the people

Or prove them wrong. (I'll prove you wrong, I'll prove you all wrong)

I don't want to lose control

I've struggled my entire life

To let it all just go

And I'm not perfect

But I am not worthless

I'm just trying to piece myself, back together again

Back together again

This heart burns

For comfort

This heart burns

For purpose

My steady hands begin to shake

My nerves react unpleasant ways

I toss and turn, I'm twitching

Addiction is sinking

There's no more pain as I blackout

Consuming substance to free myself

Rescue me, save me from myself

Time only heals so much