This Apathy

Can't you see that

This apathy

Growing inside of me

Far worse then my anxiety

Now overbearing, my bodies tearing apart

From the inside out

I'm overfilled with doubt

My minds the enemy I want to cut it out

Instead I drown myself

At my free will

Won't someone please either end me or save me from this apathy?

Save me from this apathy

It's hard to face life alone

One day I'll find you

Just hold tight my love

I can't take it, take it, no I can't take it

This is a part of me that brings me down

So low, how far will I fall, how far?

I was never prepared for this

A personal hell with my own therapist

I know that my heart is my weakness

As long as it's beating it's what keeps me seeking

I'm searching for you, spitting out lies but you deserve the truth

Now fear is haunting every move, consuming, consuming

I can't take it, take it, no I can't take it

This is a part of me that brings me down

So low, how far will I fall, how far will I fall?

As I keep searching, for the person

I feel my sanity just slipping away

I'm losing my mind, a matter of time

Before I take the fall and leap from the edge

Don't sympathise

I'll pay for all my lies

Don't let me fall

I'll right my wrongs

I swear I'll try

Don't sympathise

I'll pay for all my lies

Don't let me fall

Don't let me fall

I swear I'll change

If it's what I must do, or walk away again just like I always do

Forgetting everything, the broken promises, should I just take this step?

I can't take it, take it, no I can't take it

This is a part of me that brings me down

So low, how far will I fall, how far will I fall?

As I keep searching, for the person

I feel my sanity just slipping away

I'm losing my mind, a matter of time

Before I take the fall and leap from the edge