Soliloquies on Another Black Day

« When the cold heavy sky weighs like a lid

on spirits whom eternal boredom grips

And the wide ring of the horizon's hid.

In daytime darker than the night's eclipse »

Coming back to reality all my dreams vanished into thin air

Damn the good times are over I try to fight against suffering and pain

I regret my sins, my act of betrayal, my murders,

my supreme treachery and my love lost nature

Solitude, welcome me slowly with open arms

Solitude, day by day hold me close to you, close to the harm

Torture erodes myself and my laments put me in distress.

I'm a mortal soul who only wants to rest in peace

Just have the company of this horrible skinned Fate,

laughing at me, making me crazy

I can't stand, I will not survive my wounds

Please, let me escape this punishment. I turn to you all will you forgive me ?

My mental has changed since I was brought on this wheel.

I ask you for being acquitted

Let me believe in that little piece of hope.

I'm not able to pay forever in that penance

I Could keep an eye on my behaviour with diligence :

Soliloquies on another black day

It looks darker & darker, solitude makes me wither

My litany is useless, are comin dereliction & depress

No more, I couldn't tolerate, was a tenacious person & I've become what I hate

Feel so stupid and so alone by Turnin round this wheel

My freedom and pride have gone, I've demolished my own life

All my nightmares come true, I've stabbed myself to death

But this is here I fell

« All at once the bells leap with rage and hurl a frightful roar at heaven,

Even as wandering spirits with no country burst into a stubborn, whimpering cry

And without drums or music, long hearses pass by slowly in my soul;

Hope, vanquished,

Weeps, and atrocious, despotic Anguish on my bowed

skull plants her black flag. »

Hell Condemn me if you want

Forever I will laugh. I can escape with my thoughs