Disapointed

I'm disapointed i'm feeling

Tired and grumpy and all i see

Is everyone's smile and them laughing

And chatting and all i do is just

Sit and i was quiet

I use to be

A girl who liked being alittle by herself

And now i some reason love to be with a crowd

And today i felt so badfelt a feeling so dark

Got mixed up in emotions

When the family talked to me

I didn't know how to react cause

Of what i was feeling inside

Felt i was fading a bit

Felt as if i was going to cry

Family make me feel cunferdale

And i make them feel a little different

Everytime i am there to see them

I'm always changing and i'm always in a mood

They don't know about or understand

I'm disapointed cause i couldn't cope with people being happy around me all i could do was feel sad and mad and felt a little confused i was feeling like the wall fell on my head and i wasdead and at the time i couldn'tbearly stand beingin a room full i was so confused and unsure i didn't know how to react

I felt as if i was going to ball my eyes out

The girl i use to be was so quiet

I use to love laughing for the soul

And now all i am is feeling bad

Angry tired mad and disapointed

All i want is me to just grow up

And take no stress in my life

I'm so disapointed in myself today

I felt as if the wall had knocked me down

And i was a completly different person

I am so confused i was about to cry

I was so disapointed

And now i bearly can stand myself

The girl i used to be was so quiet

So true to herself of what she wanted to be

As she grown up..love family love friends just alittle too much all at once happing

And i couldn't stand being in a room so full

Felt as if i'd beening pushed to the limit i can't stand

Felt as if i was going to ball my eyes out

It all started friday 24th of december

And all i am feeling is disapointed

Its completly made me feel disapointed

How can i be this way at such a wonderful time of year.