Brownie Hawkeye

You took your

brownie hawkeye

and pointed it up

at the sky

you just let the

shutter fly

all of your friends

still wonder why

you were never good

with a goodbye

you just turned your back

and let it slide

i try to remember the words

i once heard

you spoke them with courage

you never deserved

all of that

that they let you carry

few were the firsts

for sure

you were the first to be married

stars went wheeling across the sky

silloetted the tops of the bending pines

summer was high

we were storming inside

the morning glories

bloomed by moonlight

we get that picture

in your mind

'cause of all the smoke

in our eyes

i took a piss

on the wall

out back of the mall

you drank the last of the sherri

green grass stains

on your bare feet

on the dash

of your mother's Chevy

I guess it was hard to quit

which you won't admit

to beginning

we vamped from shoulder

to shoulder

we'll never grow up

we just got older

i chewed a hole

right through my heart

from the very start

anticipating the myth of you