Soon You'll Understand

Mmm, you don't understand now be

'Cause you're cryin, and you hurt

You'll understand soon enough

Soon enough

Let him hold you, let him touch you

Soon you'll understand

You're my best friend's sister, grown woman and all

But you see how I am around girls; I ruin 'em all

Plus your mom call me son, around you since I was small

Shit I watched you mature, nah, this ain't right

But still when your boyfriend ditched you, life's a bitch you cried

Over my right shoulder I told you to wipe your eyes

Take your time when you likin a guy

Cause if he sense that your feelings too intense, it's pimp or die

I bought you earrings on your birthday

Drove you to college your first day

It must be sad, though it hurts to say

We could never be a item, don't even like him

You deserve better, this is ugly, Gina, please don't love me

There's better guys out there other than me

(You need a lawyer or a doctor or somebody like that you know)

Like a lawyer or a doctor with a PHD

Think of how upset your mother and brother would be

If they found that you was huggin me

My conscience is fuckin with me

Let him hold you, let him touch you

Soon you'll understand

Man, I look in the eyes of a

This, a kid that stole life and me together

We're tryin, really tryin to make it work

I'm young, and I ain't ready, and I told you

Let him hold you, let him touch you

Soon you'll understand

It ain't like, I ain't tell you from day one, I ain't shit

When it comes to relationships, I don't have the patience

Now it's too late, we got a little life together

And in my mind I really want you to be my wife forever

But in the physical it's like I'ma be trife forever

A different girl every night forever, told you to leave

But you're stubborn and you love him and

No matter what despite all the fuckin and the cheatin

You still won't leave him, now you're grievin

And I feel bad, believe me

But I'm young and I ain't ready, and this ain't easy

Wasn't fair to tell you to wait, so I told you to skate

You chose not to, now look at the shit we gotta go through

Doin a fight, throw in a fuss, you the mother of my baby

I don't want you to hate me, this is about us

Rather me, I ain't ready to be what you want me to be

Because I love you, I want you to leave, please

Let him hold you, let him touch you

Soon you'll understand

Mm, listen ma

I mean, I seen you workin two or three jobs

Daddy left, I thought I was makin things better

I made it worse

Let him hold you, let him touch you

Soon you'll understand

Dear ma, I'm in the cell, lonely as hell

Writin this scribe, thinkin bout how you must feel inside

You tried to teach me better, but I refused to grow

God damn I ain't the young man that you used to know

You said the street claim lives, but I wanted things like

Bling bling ice I was wrong in hindsight

Shit we grew apart, try to blame it on your new spouse

I know it hurt like hell the day you kicked me out

But your house is your house, I ain't respect the rules

I brought crack past your door, beefed with rival crews

And who wants to be the mother of a son who sold drugs

Co-workers saw me on the corner slingin Larry Love

Meanwhile, you workin hard like, two or three jobs

Tryin to feed me and my siblings, makin an honest livin

Who am I kiddin I, call myself easin the load

I made the load heavy, I need money for commissary

Try to understand, please

Let him hold you, let him touch you

Soon you'll understand