Hidden Tears

Could you picture love without an end?

Picture love without the tears?

Picture life without a friend?

And picture life without no fears?

And what if we embraced our years?

What if we embraced our years?

What if we embraced our years, and we ain't ever look back?

What if we replaced tears with love, happiness and laughs?

And what if there was no sadness?

What if there was no sadness?

What if we never feel hurt and all we ever felt was joy?

What if we ain't feeling sure and always knew where we were going?

Just what if?

Could you picture that?

(Yo) I'm so lost inside my mind

I feel like I'm out of time

I'm so tired of mama crying

I'm so tired of people dying

I'm so tired of saying goodbye

I'm so tired of holding tight

I'm so tired of feeling tired

I just want to close my eyes

I don't wanna see tomorrow, and everyday that follows

I can't relate to no one, I've grown sick of all this convos

Everything seems pointless, I feel like I'm voiceless

No one understand this is not my choice, I can't control this

Depression has me captive

I know I should be grateful, but I take this shit for granted

Honestly, I'm sorry

If I can change I really would

But this is who I am and I'll forever be misunderstood

I'm just a product of what God made

I'm just a product of a flawed man with heartaches

I'm just a product of a broken soul

I'm just a fallen angel walking down this lonely road

I don't know man, I wish I had answers for the way I felt

I wish I knew why I hold this burden deep whitin'

I don't do this shit on purpose, I don't choose to feel this way

It's much deeper than that

And sometimes it kills me, because I see everyone else happy

I see my family, my friends

They are just so more stronger mentally, than me

I'm so fucking vulnerable, and I just don't get it

And that scares me, that scares me because I'm wearing out

And I try to tell people to be strong

What does that meant when I'm running out of strength myself?

You know? It's life

It's like I just can't picture happiness anymore man

If depression was a switch, I would flick it off right now

But depression is like a bitch, that don't wan to see your smile

She will kick you when you're down and she will trip you when you're up

She will stick you to the ground and she will hit you in the gut

I've been dealing with this shit for years

And I hide my pain amongst this peers

When I explain it's like nobody hears

Only if they saw this hidden tears

I've been dealing with this shit for years

And I hide my pain amongst this peers

When I explain it's like nobody hears

Only if they saw this hidden tears

Only if you saw the hidden tears, you'll see I'm suffering

You will know that I'm sincere and I'v had just enough of me

I don't like no company, I'm much preferred to be alone

Distant from my loved ones and hardly am I ever home

I just want to run away, somewhere where the sun is great

Somewhere where there's such no thing as pain, and no such thing as hate

Somewhere where I'll be okay, and someday I'll be okay

No, I cannot promise you I'll stay

No longer holding on as I slowly slip away

To live another day means to fight another war

Forgiven always pray but I can't do that shit no more

I can tell my faith is dying

I'm trapped out my own asylum

I've lost myself, I can not find me

If I off myself, I'll probably find him