Promise

In a world that's full of hope, why am I alone?

Had this feeling so long my serotonin's gone

Even when I get high, why do I feel so low?

Never good at goodbyes, I hold on

I hate the man I see when I see myself

A reflection of hell

I told myself it’s different it’s so hard to believe

I know that I won’t change so I sold another dream

All the lives I told are burning holes inside

And I don’t, I don’t know why

I broke a promise to myself

As I stand here again all covered in mud

And I’m drenched in my sins

What have I become?

I said the last time that would be my last time

Not good at goodbyes, I hold on

If I jumped off this ledge would you catch my fall?

Would you care at all?

I told myself it’s different it’s so hard to believe

I know that I won’t change so I sold another dream

All the lives I told are burning holes inside

And I don’t, I don’t know why

I broke a promise to myself

All the stages of shaken

All the roads that I’ve taken

Wondering if I can really make it

Feeling so depressed I’ve been humbled and humiliated

All the truth I’ve mistaken for the things I thought saved me

It’s like nobody knows

At any given second I feel like I might explode

I told myself it’s different it’s so hard to believe

I know that I won’t change so I sold another dream

All the lives I told are burning holes inside

And I don’t, I don’t know why

I broke a promise to myself