Not Mine

You’re my headsman

You’re my butcher

And I’ll let you murder me

But that’s the price I’ll pay

To finally be free

And I know that wherever I go

I’ll carry this weight I was given from you

A burden that just wasn’t mine has been passed onto my shoulders

Although for you it seems like it should be my fault

Responsibilities

That weren’t mine to begin with

You tried to deprive me of all of the very things

That made me who I was

But that’s just your sweet love

You’re my lover

You’re my partner

And I left my house and home

To finally exist

As someone real to you

I tried to empathise more times than I can count

But fought against myself

Did I really deserve that?

You took me for a coward

For leaving you behind

But sadly you’re just too selfish to see outside your shell

You’d never put yourself in my place

To see what I went through

The only one we cared about

The whole time

Was just you

You’re my father

You’re my sire

You have shaped me into life

With traces of your own

Sketching me on paper

No, you can’t, you said

Unless I tell you what to do

No, you’re not that good

I’ll tell you which path you should choose

You’re inferior

You’re a disaster

You’re catastrophic

You cannot

You will not

You should not

I know better

You will fail

You’re reckless

You have no talent

Let me take good care of you – this I promise you

In the name of love I will clip your wings

You’re my monster

You’re my demon

And I pray so that tonight

I’ll look under my bed

And you will not be there

Hey, never mine

You’re never mine

Yes, you placed the blame on me

But never faced head on

All the shit you have done