Damn The Daisies

I go to the table

Your pictures are on the front

I looked so much younger then

Somehow so much different

I look in the mirror

I want to spit on my face

I hate these things I've become

I don't deserve to take up this space

That I live in

Dark rings around my eyes

Bruises on my bones

I'm tired of these lies that drip from my mouth

Like habitual beads from a broken string of once was love

I go to the drawer

I pull out the gun

In my hands it's heavy and cold

It feels like something I was damned to hold

Damn you man and your sweet kisses

Damn your hairs in the sink

Damn the pool and all the trash it collected

The leaves only look like blonds and brunettes to me

Damn my suspicion and damn my sight

Damn you and your twisted ways

Damn my courage for being gone so much

Damn love because it stayed

I lift the gun to my face

I'm gonna shoot myself in the eyes

The daisies are on the table

That you gave me yesterday

But yesterday I was willing to compromise

I hear the key and you open the door

Billy runs to greet you

Billy won't hurt anymore

The sun shines in the window

Where the pictures and the daisies lay

This chaos can't continue

I never liked daisies anyway

I hear your footsteps

Coming down the stairs

You reach the bottom with an apology in your hand

I'm standing there

Funny you have that same look in your eyes

As all those times I had in mine

I pull the trigger

The daisies apologize for the last time

Billy runs downstairs

I am numb

I call the police

Tell them what I've done

I go to the table

where the pictures and the daisies lay

I looked so much younger then

Somehow so much different

The sun shines through the window

Where the pictures and the daisies lay

Where the daisies lay

Where the daisies lay

Oh well

Never liked daisies anyway