You're Not Alone

Just let me down

Don't let me down gently

Just let me down

Don’t let me down gently

I feel so alone these days

Lost myself along this way

If it gets worse then I might need change

Does anybody out there feel the same?

I just wanna go back to the world I was livin' in

Back when I wasn't focused on the money or the dividends

Back when life was so simple, but right now I been drownin’

Yeah, my circle gets smaller with every comma

Had to cut off some people, don't want the drama

All the snakes in my path and they're so dishonest

Tried to give 'em a plate but they're in my pockets

I don't want this

I don't want this life

Sometimes I want off this ride

Sometimes I don't even wanna try

Sometimes I’m—

Searchin’ for answers that I'd never get

Like why was it so hard to try to exist?

Why was it better when I was a kid?, when I saw traumas I’d try to forget-

Man I was 13 when I saw my mom get choked out, call 911 then I broke down

Got too much pain, never wrote down

Let it built 'till that breakdown backstage in London

Hard to predict when the pain is comin'

Push it all down 'till I can not stomach it

Cannot run from it, down ’till everything hurts

I don't wanna think that it might get worse

'Cause if it gets worse I don't know what'll happen

I might end up hurtin' me 'till my pulse flattens

Until then I'm focused on all of my passions, I'm losin' my way

Lost in my mind now

I don't know, but my head hurts

I'm not gettin' better

I'm not changin'

Drownin' in the deep end

Voices callin', I can see them

I've been drownin' in the deep end

Voices callin', I can see them

Anxiety ridden

That's how I been livin'

Distract myself that's why I been driven

I don't wanna think about the things that make me weak

Down this rabbit hole till I can leave

Down until my brain feels obsolete

Wish I didn't view the world so bleak

Always wear my issues on my sleeves, like

You think that you're on the right path 'till one thing goes wrong

And your vision goes black

Your body goes numb and you think on the past

You think on your life and when things all went bad

It follows no matter the place

Changin' location just picks up the pace

Thought it'd be safe when I sold out a stage

That's when the demons caught up to the race

Grip me by the neck and then pulled me back down again

Seein' childhood traumas that I relive

I was half asleep at like 12 AM

Sisters ex boyfriend breakin' in

He beat up my sister, I wanted to murder him

But I was too young to be hurtin' him

That's not rage any child should feel

That's not pain that ever does heal

Lost and I'm losin my mental

I'm thinkin' this life is another cruel riddle-

That I'll never solve

Dealin' with issues that I can't resolve

When things lookin' up I just wait for the fall

Scared that it's holdin' me back, wanna move on but I'm chained to the past

This prison depression, I'm on the attack

That's why I been stuck in this trap, yeah

Don't wanna complain, but I never wanna step foot on stage

Every time I do I relive pain

'Cause I got sad songs so ingrained

I relive all of my scars and how I got 'em

It's revealin' me

Relive all the worst parts of my life and It's been killin' me

Lost in my mind now

I don't know, but my head hurts

I'm not gettin' better

I'm not changin'

Drownin' in the deep end

Voices callin', I can see them

I've been drownin' in the deep end

Voices callin', I can see them

Drownin' in the deep end

Voices callin', I can see them

I've been drownin' in the deep end

Voices callin', I can see them

Just let me down

Don't let me down gently

Just let me down

Don't let me down gently