This Pain

Lyrics:

(verse 1)

now I don't really understand what is right

if you're saying that I'm wrong and you're feeling so right

but I'm feeling so right and I think that you are wrong

so that means we're both right? and the both of us are wrong?

I don't understand life, I can't really see a light

when it's dark in my world and I'm feeling so blind

and the shine we wake up to, the things in our lives

and these things that we must do, just to survive

when you're walking downtown everybody just brush you

the industry's like a strip club too

look at everybody on the stage and they're tryin to get paid

make change and some are there in the game just to fuck you over

and everyone give you the cold shoulder

a loner, the people in the city really do hate

and everybody walk around with a screwface

but I'ma reach the sky, it's never too late

(verse 2)

what is really hard work? I don't know what it must be

trust me, the unappreciated never succeed

we gotta wait so long to get a big break

see I've been breakin' my back for my city

and I'm workin my ass off, I can't even sit straight (pause)

they respect what I do but they diss me

what I do is me so it don't make sense

I didn't come in the game trying to make friends

so when I don't reply, don't get offended

and I don't get it, I don't know who my friends is

or who my friends are, so I'm pretending

when the success starts they try to be your bestfriend

and everybody fake in there own ways

so many I can point out but I don't say

I'm on stage and my life is like a roleplay

I wanna fly but the wings already flown away

(verse 3)

they don't notice me when I'm helping everybody else

and they say I'm cocky when I wanna focus on myself

and I'm trying to make it far and I could be better off

but I'm kind and I should say my name instead of yours

I don't wanna lose and I don't need luck to win

quit lying to yaself, you didn't do a fuckin' thing

you can't phase me, these people acting like they fuckin' made me

I been working and nobody ever paid me

doing my thing now, making money on my own

and I'm shunning on the low, I don't care if you hate me

and I gotta home, real friends where I belong

it ain't wrong, I'm not a category where you can place me

appreciate myself, everything that God gave me

use it to my advantage, what I been doing lately

I do it all and nobody does it for me

don't take it personal and no I ain't sorry

(verse 4)

I'm feeling in my zone but I'm feelin so alone

with nobody that's around me, concealing what is known

every one of my surroundings, easily confusing me

with my race and appealing to my own

with a face that doesn't quite fit in with the community

it's hard to get hot when you're dealing with the cold

and there's no sign of unity, everybody stare you

and every song that you release, they compare you

and I'm aware too, I'm just trying to bare through

gotta be careful, the industry will tear you

and don't be so fly without your parachute

it changed me, now I've done what I didn't dare to do

I still haven't seen money after 9 shows

I've been patient, I'm feeling like the times froze

I can't stand the world, I'd rather die slow

I'd rather die slow, and I'm so