My Fantasy Destroyed

I walk alone at night, hoping that

I'll find epiphany or more...a deeper understanding

Always knew that I'd die alone, never thought that I'd find a home

Home, a different meaning, (for someone) who is solitary

Always knew that I'd die alone, never thought that I'd find someone

Someone to be by my side, to help me find the fleeting light

Full moon shines

I'm swimming in my deepest fears

Clouded skies

I'm treading in the blackened waves

Never mind

Something is here

Crashing waves

Relentless in my throbbing ears

Flowing blood

A highway jam that's in my head

Pounding fear

Time to reveal

Feeling now that my brother's tale doesn't have a happy end

End to a broken line, this wretched soul/observer

Always knew I was special, I...I am taken back by...

By the surreal feelings here, almost like a dream world here

Glowing moon

It's almost like a lucid dream

Lurking doom

Or is it just a catalyst

Never mind

Time to go back

Gentle wind

I look up to his room alight

So exposed

I'm standing naked in the rain

Now return...to numbing death

Cancer burns families down

Rips cracks into canyon walls

Step by step up to his room

Lying there, mother beside

Fantasy is torn apart, reality is fucking stark

Stark in the face of tears, eyes that show our fears

Mom caresses his withered hands, hold on tight and pray aloud

Loud is the comfort of men, yet they're silent in their pride

Indoor breeze

This surely cannot happen now

Earned your keys into another bleaker world

Blood and bone

You won't escape

Only smoke

Emergency to save his life

Without fire

No longer am I here alone

Earned your keys

Time to grow up