If I ever Loved you

Baby, I was not the one

I guess you know that now

But I kept you real distracted for a while.

I look back and nothing much

Ever comes to mind

Sometimes I can picture half a smile

We were thick as thieves

Hung on each others sleeves

Kissing all the time

But if I ever loved you shouldn't I be crying

Shouldn't I be cracking up

And drinking all the time?

Yeah, if I ever loved you how come I feel alright

How come the nights are so easy

And the mornings look so bright?

I try to figure what has gone

I seem to look the same

Maybe there's a tightness around my eyes

Sometimes the evening comes

I think I miss someone

And then I realise

That if I ever loved you shouldn't I be crying

Shouldnt I be cracking up

And drinking all the time?

Yeah, if I ever loved you how come I feel alright

How come the nights are so easy

And the mornings look so bright?

Love it can make your world

Bring you alive

But I wasn't dead before

So baby, you ain't hard to survive.

Maybe I was not the one

But I had to try

And in the end there's no such thing

As wasted time

I was the interim

Between nothing-ness and him

So how is that a crime?

But if I ever loved you shouldn't I be crying?

Shouldn't I be cracking up and drinking all the time?

Yeah, if I ever loved you how come I feel alright?

How come the nights are so easy

And the mornings looks so bright?