Signs

I've been lost inside my mind

Not sure what I thought I'd find

Find, find

Now there's nowhere I can hide

You see straight through my lies

I've been fighting with the tide

Tossing turning every night

Time is precious I've been reckless

I'm not ready to go steady

I can't help these tendencies to push people away from me

I just, I just need to adjust, adjust

Yeah my eyes are closed but I see fine

Darkness never made me blind

Yet I can't come to my senses

Choosing sides I'm on these fences

I'm not on your team I'm always in between

Getting high like I'm a fiend

But that's not what I need I know my priorities

Number one is always me

So call me selfish I can't help it

I already feel the ache

I can't play no games

Can't kick it with no lames

I've got my own goals for me and I won't stop till I succeed

Searching for a part of me I'm not sure I've ever seen

It's like I've seen so many signs but I don't know what they mean

And I've lost my northern star

Don't know where I'm supposed to be

Oh what's my destiny

But don't doubt me cause I am golden

You don't know the weight I'm holding

I am trying to find a balance while everything is unfolding

If you wanna know me you've gotta learn one thing

If you're not going to stay then get the fuck out of my way

I've got a lot to give so please don't waste my time

I always tell them how it is

I don't make 'em read my mind

But I won't lie man it's been hard

Since you've played that victim card

Ever since I've been on guard

Desperately hiding my heart

Nothing really feels the same

I'm not sure that I can be saved

I know they want me to cave so I stand tall

Yeah I'll be brave

I've been lost inside my mind

Not sure what I thought I'd find, find, find