Should've, Would've (feat. SadBoyProlific)

Yeah

When I'm alone I think about the time we spent together

I fall to pieces when thinking he probably treats you better

Our love was different, so it's hard to set the tone

You living out in California

I've been stuck inside a different weather

I often wonder if you thought that I deserved you

Too late to say it, but you know I'd never hurt you

And now I wonder if love is really a virtue

You made me realize that I never really deserved you

You taught me how to love

Now it's something I don't believe in

I thought you were the one

But now I struggle through the seasons

How can I be so in love with someone so misleading

And how could you just throw away my heart without a reason

So many things that I should get up off of my chest

I just sit inside my room and reminiscing in my head

Lately I been feeling like my soul has been a mess

And all I really want's for you to love me like I'm dead

Yo, last time I saw you was your back turned walking

How many people got a leave fore' I see I'm the problem

You'll finally find some better guy who isn't shy and awkward

And I'll be here alone cause my fears are unconquered

Tired of people breaking trust and saying that I'm not enough

Why am I only okay when I'm off the blunt

Feeling like I get my heart broke every single month

Might just give it up, I don't even give a fuck

Tired of this feeling, got it every single minute

My mind like a vinyl cause it's skipping while it's spinning

Popping painkillers but I think I finally get it

I'm only killing myself yeah the meds won't fix it

But, that's just the way that I cope

And honestly, I'm just wishing that they leave me alone

Lift the pen like a shovel, just wanna die in a hole

Cause these midnight thoughts got me feeling dead and cold