Vanish

Vanish in the world around me

Leaving ash and bone

My crown of thorns that shows no mercy

But its my own

I grace these walls with all my failures

What have I become?

I think its time for my forgiveness

Lick these wounds to heal

I'm losing faith, the silent poison

Pain I'd like to feel

I know its time

Lay down, surrender

Someone take control

'Cause I'm afraid to love

'Cause I'm afraid ill leave

I'm living with these lies

That only I believe

And I dont want to walk

But I dont want to run

Cause I'm afraid of failing

In front of everyone

Hold me down and hurt my feelings

I wont do the same

I cry in silent disappointed

Taking all the blame

But dark hour always finds me

Pulling far away

'Cause I'm afraid to win

'Cause I dont wanna lose

And I'm afraid of falling

Under harsh review

And I'm afraid to live

And I'm too tired to try

I hide behind these shadows

Turn off all the lights

This never ending longing feeling

Waiting to be loved

I still believe in in forever

But it never comes

I'm afraid to love

'Cause I'm afraid ill leave

I'm living with these lies

That only I believe

And I'm afraid to walk

But I dont wanna run

And I'm afraid of hurting

Myself and everyone