Complex

I'm 21

The edge is razor thin

Between being numb

And feeling everything

Good days only serve as relief again

Now I'm watching as I waste away my days

And then

It’s a cross dissolve

It’s a scene I’ve played before

And the leading role that I thought I’d hold

Doesn’t listen to me anymore

But I'm wearing his boxers

I'm being a good wife

We won’t be together

But maybe the next life

I need him like water

He lives on a landslide

I cry in his bathroom

He turns off the big light

I'm being the cool girl

I'm keeping it so tight

I carry home while

My friends have a good night

I need him like water

He thinks that I'm alright

I'm not feeling human

I think he’s a good guy

But it’s complex

It’s a complex

It’s a complex

I'm a complex

Triangular

I can see them now

Three points at which

I let myself down

I was just a girl

What’s the excuse now?

Too regular

This pattern

I’ve been taking shelter in

Reaching new highs

When I was 19

I wanted to die

Now I just want to kill you

But I don’t want to paint you the victim

And I talk a good game

I’d die for you just the promise you’d listen

But I'm wearing his boxers

I'm being a good wife

We won’t be together

But maybe the next life

I need him like water

He lives on a landslide

I cry in his bathroom

He turns off the big light

I'm being the cool girl

I'm keeping it so tight

I carry home while

My friends have a good night

I need him like water

He thinks that I'm alright

I'm not feeling human

I think he’s a good guy

But it’s complex

It’s a complex

It’s a complex

I'm a complex