Christina

I'm always getting shitted on son, ain't gonna be no, no different

Can you accept me as I am? I ask you

or is all the love lost? I need you

Can you open your heart to mine and accept me and with my faults

During the human course of activity, watch me give me my room

I am radiant, give me my space, I am light

Yo, 2/27/98 I wrote a check out to H.W. funeral home

for my little sister Christina 15 years old

damn man this fuckin world is so cold

8 months before I had to do three years

Coming from the air port my face burning with tears

I had this black cloud hovering over me

Far back as I can check back down my family tree

Its been with me since my first LP

2nd LP I was sittin in court

3rd LP I was trapped in the belly of the beast, guided back to the streets

by the power of the mind and positive of thought

some say livin is death and dying is life

I say pray for me that I should be born tonight

I remember roaming the streets in those cold winter nights

Look at me this is my life

Suddenly my life feels so wrong tell me what the hell is going on

Tell me tell me why my life feels so wrong so wrong

Tell me what the hell is going on

Help me please help me

I can't even begin to explain the mental anguish

I went through as a child when I heard my pops had passed

I went to see him on the sick bed

with my grandmother that day I knew it was the last

I loved him but I had to grow up without him

Over the years I've lived through frustrations and questions

In 90' I went to jail as an adolescent

Then in 92' my moms had to go back to the essence

Got me thinkin about the meaning of my existence (I lost my best friend)

I realized the devil was spying on me from a distance

He don't want me to receive my blessings he fear me

My family suffered more deaths then the Kennedy's

This is real and if you don't believe me ask someone that grew with me

Know them and feel my energy

Please never fabricated nor duplicated so I ask you

Can you open you hearts and minds and receive me with all my faults

Can you open your hearts and minds unconditionally to begin to understand my thoughts

Hey yo this world is a pool of sharks

But I'm the animal right when I stand up for myself and bark

And this year I gotta go all out for it

I've been hustlin for 13 years, nothin to show for it (I mean nothin)

Lookin over my bills damn they eaten me up

entertainment task force watchin so what the fuck

I paid my taxes too fuck you and your uncle

The laws of nature will see me through

And yeah I peep it and naw it ain't no secret

How niggas give their word with no intentions to keep it

I'm givin you the roots of the real

My emotional feelings bi-polar is how I feel

but still you turn your back on me like you dont know me or you hate me

don't you recognize family when you see me

i cut my right arm off for you and this is how you repay me

ahh dog you breakin my heart