Count Me Out

We may not know which way to go

On this dark road

(Mr. Duckworth)

All of these hoes make it difficult

Session 10

Breakthrough

One of these lives, I'ma make things right

With the wrongs I've done, that's one of you now

With the Father, Son, 'til then, I fight

Rain on me, put the blame on me

Got guilt, got hurt, got shame on me

Got six magazines that's aimed at me

Done every magazine, what's fame to me?

It's a game to me, where the bedroom at?

Sleep, I ain't never had affairs with that

What's fair whеn the hearts and the words don't rеach?

What's fair when the money don't take things back?

It's rare when somebody take your dreams back

I care too much, wanna share too much, in my head too much

I shut down too, I ain't there too much

I'm a complex soul, they layered me up

Then broke me down, and morality's dust, I lack in trust

This time around, I trust myself

Please, everybody else but myself

All else fails, I was myself

Outdone fear, outdone myself

This year, you better one yourself

Masks on the babies, mask on an opp

Wear masks in the neighborhood stores you shop

But a mask won't hide who you are inside

Look around, the reality's carved in lies

Wipe my ego, dodge my pride

Look myself in the mirror

Amityville, I ain't seen nothin' scarier

I fought like a Pitbull Terrier, blood I shed could fill up aquariums

Tell all my angels: Carry 'em

Every emotion been deprived

Even my strong points couldn't survive

If I didn't learn to love myself, forgive myself a hundred times, dawg

I love when you count me out

I love when you count me out

I love when you count me out

I love when you count me out

Fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuckin' it up

How you gon' win my trust when the lies run deep?

How you gon' bend your love when the bad don't sleep? (Sheesh)

Beep, beep, crash our feelings in the middle of the street (vroom, vroom)

Fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuckin' it up

When you was at your lowest, tell me, where the hoes was at?

When you was at your lowest, tell me, where the bros was at?

3:30 in the morning, scroll through the call log

Ain't nobody but the mirror lookin' for the fall off

I love when you count me out

I love when you count me out

I love when you count me out

I love when you count me out

My name is in your mouth

Shoo, shoo

It's gon' take more than pride to stop me

Call 911, I caught a body

Sun up now and yesterday is fadin'

Healing's only 'bout a mile away

Let me tell you 'bout the woman I know (that's my baby)

I know karma like to follow us strong (sheesh)

I know millionaires that feel alone (sheesh)

Anytime I couldn't find God, I still could find myself through a song

Many find their life in a phone

Fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuckin' it up

You said I'd feel better if I just worked hard without liftin' my head up

That left me fed up

You made me worry

I wanted my best version, but you ignored me

Then changed the story

Then changed the story

Good energy in the room, drop the location, please

Antibiotic for the womb when I'm frustrated, please

Tryna keep my good conscience in rotation

Thoughts in my head, they livin' there with no (tryna keep my good)

I made a decision, never give you my feelings

Fuck with you from, fuck with you from a distance

Some put it on the devil when they fall short

I put it on my ego, lord of all lords

Sometimes I fall for her, dawg

I love when you count me out

I love when you count me out (sheesh)

I love when you count me out (sheesh)

I love when you count me out

My name is in your mouth

Fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuckin' it up (true, true)

Miss Regrets, I believe that you done me wrong (Miss Regrets)

Miss Regrets, can you, please, exit out my home? (Miss Regrets)

Miss Regret, I think I'm better off alone (Miss Regrets)

(Miss Regret) Miss Regret, I got these deep regrets

Some things I can't forget

Lord knows I've tried my best

You said it's not my best

I came up out my flesh

Some things I must confess (ay, ay)

Spoke my truth, paid my debt (ay, ay)

Can't you see I'm a wreck? (Ay, ay)

Let me loose, I digress (ay, ay)

This is me and I'm blessed (ay, ay)

This is me and I'm blessed (ay, ay)

This is me and I'm blessed (ay, ay)

This is me and I'm blessed (ay, ay)

Anybody fightin' through the stress? (Ay, ay)

Anybody fightin' through the—?