Lipstick Tonic

We're on the top as we sink

We're on the top when we forget

We're on the top of living

When we're on top of all regrets

This is just the beginning

It is a start of the change

When we realize

The sacrifice we have to make

This is not what you wanted

But you have brought it on yourself

Rewinding all the mistakes

Reminding me of yesterday

Who would care if I was gone

When life goes on and on and on

Without me

With empty bottles behind my back

And the venom in my veins

A spew of words to the attack

Words I'd choke on for days

Months, and years we could have spent

But that's just a dream, with venom in my veins

Now when all the words are said

And all the promises lie dead

Buried deep, among the fallen dreams they rest

From the grave they'll sing with me

This forgotten melody

Not even gravity can hold me back to Earth

Now you see me

You see my lipstick covered face

I didn't put it on

It ended up there by mistake

Don't look at me, just look away

I'm not to blame

So disengaged

It felt like such a good idea yesterday

With empty bottles behind my back

And the venom in my veins

A spew of words to the attack

Words I'd choke on for days

Months, and years we could have spent

But that's just a dream, with the venom in my veins

Now when all the words are said

And all the promises lie dead

Buried deep, among the fallen dreams they rest

From the grave they'll sing with me

This forgotten melody

Feeling how gravity won't hold me back to Earth

Now you'll never be coming back

I won't see your pretty face

Just pray for a heart attack

Something to put me away

These few years that we have spent

Only one thing to regret

The fucking venom in my veins

Now when all the words are said

We let the silence scream instead

After all it's just another fucked love story

I'm not the actions that you see

Nor am I what I used to be

Not even our history can hold me back to Earth