Let It Go

My momma gave me up when I was four years old

She didn't destroy my body but she killed my soul

Now it's cold 'cause I'm sleeping in my back seat

I understand the spirit's willing but my flesh is weak

Let him speak, let me speak

I never had a chance to dream

Ten years old and finding love in dirty magazines

Ms. December you remember I bought you twice

Now I'm thirty plus and still paying the price

Had a sister that I barely knew

Kind of got separated by the age of two

Same momma different daddy so we couldn't fake it

I saw my sister's daddy beat her in the tub naked

Take it serious the demons in a man's mind

The same man on rape charges now he's doing time

Crack followed and like daddy prison thirteen years

Haven't seen her, I guess she's traded tears for fears

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Shout, Shout, let it all out

These are the things I can do without so come on

Come on I'm talking to you, so come on

Sex was how I made it through

Without someone to teach you love what else is there to do

See where I'm from they call you gay

Say you ain't a man, show them you ain't no punk

Get all the girls you can, a simple plan that still haunts me even now today

Back to seventeen and got a baby on the way

No GED all I see is failure in my eyes, if you're listening and remember I apologize

I was raised falling in the church

Made mistakes and heard the Lord's calling in the church

After service in the parking lot getting high

Wanted to be accepted so bad I was willing to die

Even tried to tell the Pastor, but he couldn't see years of low self-esteem and insecurities

Church taught me how to shout and how to speak in tongues

But preacher, teach me how to live now when the tongue is done, help me

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See I, See I, I just wanna let it go, just wanna let it go, just let it go

Jesus please, on my knees can't You hear me crying

You said to put it in Your hands and Lord I'm really trying

You wasn't lying when You said You reap what you sow

Like that night momma died, it's hard to let it go

You adopted me, cared for me, changed my name

But I cursed at you, lied to you and left you pain

It's not strange I can still see it in my head

To know for hours you were lying there in that bed

If you're listening to this record

If it's day or night

If your momma is still living treat your momma right

Don't be like me and let that moment slip away

And be careful 'cause you can't take back what you say

To my real momma if you're listening I'm letting it go

To my father, I forgive you, 'cause you didn't know that the pain was the preparation for my destiny

And one more thing Lord let my son be a better man than me

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