Randi

I give the punishment

I take the brandishment

I am the one so hard on me

I am the implement

I am the battered one

(against? i give?) myself to rape

I stay out in the sun

I am the one so pale

Taking it all too hard

Too serious and way too smart

Too analytical

Taking it on the chin?

Holding it deep within

Letting it hurt again

Dare not to swell with pride

Taking it on the chin

Nothing here works out

Nothing to cry about

I've ruined it negative

I killed it with my ?

Clock my attention span

The fingers of one hand

I count down 3-2-1

And start all over again

Nothing here works out

I should be more secure

Drink in the morning sun

My work could turn to fun

I give the punishment

I take the brandishment

I am so hard on me

I am the implement