North Chameleon Soul (Ride Monologue)

I was in the winter of my life

And the men I met along the road were my only summer

At night, I fell asleep with visions of myself

Dancing and laughing and crying with them

Three years down the line of being on an endless world tour

And my memories of them were the only things that sustained me

And my only real happy times

I was a singer, not a very popular one

I once had dreams of becoming a beautiful poet

But upon an unfortunate series of events

Saw those dreams dashed and divided

Like a millions stars in the night sky

That I wished on over and over again, sparkling and broken

But I didn't really mind because I knew that

It takes getting everything

You ever wanted and then losing it

To know what true freedom is

When the people I used to know

Found out what I had been doing

How I had been living, they asked me why

But there's no use in talking to people who have a home

They have no idea what it's like to seek safety in other people

For home to be wherever you lie your head

I was always an unusual girl

My mother told me I had a chameleon soul

No moral compass pointing due North

No fixed personality

Just an inner indecisiveness

That was as wide and as wavering as the ocean

And if I said that I didn't plan

For it to turn out this way, I'd be lying

Because I was born to be the other woman

Who belonged to no one, who belonged to everyone

Who had nothing, who wanted everything

With a fire for every experience

And an obsession for freedom

That terrified me to the point that I couldn't even talk about

And pushed me to a nomadic point of madness

That both dazzled and dizzied me

Every night I used to pray that I'd find my people

And finally I did

On the open road

We had nothing to lose, nothing to gain

Nothing we desired anymore

Except to make our lives into a work of art

Live fast

Die young

Be wild

And have fun

I believe in the country America used to be

I believe in the person I want to become

I believe in the freedom of the open road

And my motto is the same as ever

I believe in the kindness of strangers

And when I'm at war with myself

I ride, I just ride

Who are you?

Are you in touch with all your darkest fantasies?

Have you created a life for yourself where you can experience them?

I have

I am fucking crazy

But I am free