Sweet Lament

Do you ever shake

Noticing that you are still awake

That everything around you is real

I'm really this old, this is how I look and feel

Where'd time go and who am I?

But even so

I've tendencies I can't seem to outgrow

Like this overwhelming fear I have of the dark

Planning conversations I won't start

I'm terrified of what might be

And with one lamenting yell

We all retreat within ourselves

And then we say "oh well, we tried'

Should have tried a little harder

Should have been a little smarter

But if God don't have a plan, neither do I

We try so hard

To make up for all the things we aren't

Like the way I yell at the TV

Every night while watching Jeopardy

Though I won't make a single dime

And I don't mean

To be a pessimist but it's obscene

The way that things can all go down in flames

Fast or slow don't matter, it's the same

Just down, down, down in a great landslide

And with one lamenting yell

We all retreat within ourselves

And then we say "my God, how we tried"

But God is but a man

With a martini in his hand

These stars don't hold my fate and neither do I

Hearts afire aren't happier

No, hearts afire aren't happier

They all fizzle out fast in the end

Racing minds aren't happier

No, racing minds aren't happier

They are all just dead last in the end

And with one lamenting yell

We all retreat within ourselves

And then we say "my God, how we tried"

But God is but a man

With a martini in his hand

If love gets to be blind, then so do I