The Break Up Song

If I saw you in person, I'd beg for you back

Scream, cry about all the good that we had

Your gaslight would burn all night on full blast

While I beg you to listen and hand you your ass

Your backbone would bend so much it would snap

My reason wouldn't fix your past

You made up in your mind, you can only trust yourself

Let me know how that works out for you in your living hell

If you'd just give in to your attainable needs

So us mind-reading fools wouldn't have to kill your disease

And it creeps up on me like a horrible anxiety dream except I'm awake believing

Only breathing is keeping me living

I guess forever to you meant a means to an end

While my forevеr love drug is gifting me bends

I yеll to myself as I'm making your bed

Turn off the house alarm but not the one in my head

I go out to the front yard where we planted fruit trees

That will feed your next lover the vitamin C

I'll be up on that hill with too much to say

Unconditional love making me stay

And I think of that moment, that night, that day, when you beg

Please, come here, please stay

With the ring and a spiel, you moved the motion so I had to steal

You loved me with your good moods, attacked me with your old wounds

I guess your passive aggression was still your best, babe

But it creeped on us and never now seems so obvious

More than ever I'm grieving

Only breathing is keeping us living

You create in your mind that people don't like you

You laugh at the Pisces but truly it haunts you

You think you'd know better, you've done this your whole life

You’re less than insane 'cause you don't expect change

Your comfort and sadness makes life what it is

Can't convince you of your happiness

Even if I did, you'd find cruel of my intent

Make it your home, your victim kingdom

Just you on your throne

No love

No love

Didn't creep up on you

It's a choice you carefully chose

Quit wavering, I can feel you retreating

Only breathing is keeping you living

Okay, here we go

You swear I don't appreciate you

Well, I don't use sex as thank you

Sure bent over backwards to be available for you

I was there from the get-go

I'm not your trophy or your coattail

Fame must have changed your point of view

I'm the writer not the muse

Better pop star than partner

Now you got all you wanted

You can pay off your problems ‘cause your ego won't bargain

Play me like a melody, made me your enemy

'Cause blame gives you the courage to act on infidelity

You're slave for the new

Clumsy love needs a fix

It's not the new one's fault, the captain steers the ship

It's predictable not special, that skin serves its devil

A true lust romance is never successful

We're the perfect example

And all jokes aside, I'm wishing you good life

Remember this time to let it honesty guide

I guess we really did try, it feels right to say goodbye

It's rarer these days, but when you cross my mind

It creeps up on me, that romanticization disease

And then I break on healing

I'm breathing, I'm free, I am living